Mustard Seed, and a poem

Have you ever heard about having a mustard seed of faith?

Matthew 17:14-20 A Possessed Boy

"Because of your little faith; for amen I say to you, if you have faith like a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, Remove from here; and it will remove.

nothing is impossible

prayer and fasting

I placed a mustard seed in a glass bottle. I can barely see it... that's all the faith I need to have? Oh, I have so much more than the bare minimum.

I think of the TikTok creator Soft Life Wife, she's the one who introduced me to this - I think, my storage is full (forgetfulness)

I know how I picture my life to be but for whatever reason it's been in my head that working automatically equals working hard, almost as if it's one word

So thanks girl... what I want exists

I watch you in joy, happy to see what I want exists

to feel like a woman should, soft

softness and what we value as luxury varies from person to person so no ingredients/measurements are the same - comparison is of the devil

cause my soft life does include me being an entrepreneur ...ingredient of my soft life

let's congratulate and work on becoming our highest best self

each day is a present, treat it as such

a redo, you can really grow in a day

a moment

a moment, one single moment can change the rest of your life

You're the Eagle and I'm the wand

I'm just waiting on you to correspond

so I can respond

we can go beyond Pluto unbreakable bond

You're the Eagle and I'm the wand

You carry me by your claws

paws pause the haters reminding me of my flaws

I don't withdraw I suck on you like a straw

you know n*ggas full of lies your voice get me moist

because I knew your flaws

and when you dropped your jaws talking

ancestors bleeding I provided the gauze

You're the Eagle and I'm the wand

Let's fly out infinity and beyond

I felt sad. She said she would never date a black man or maybe it was marry?! I can't remember. Is my black man going extinct? I think of ancestry, we barely know where we come from we're already extinct... we have to know where we're coming from to know where we going. Who are our forefathers? Is it a sin to want to know? We go as far back as Jesus but not great great great grandfather? My mind. Wondering. If a person has never been to medical school in their life would you allow him/her to operate on your loved one? But at the same time can you give me some advice even medical based on your experience? Yes! It's levels to this...

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPRTBSEJR/

I'll admit. I didn't watch the whole video. My attention span in very short. However, I'm sure I would have gotten some valuable information from very beginning to the very end. Alpha and Omega. I think of our hour long podcast. In the moment I want to keep going... in some moments when I notice I stumble over my words or I realized I've said "like" 100 times I want to stop... I want to be perfect. I'm not. I'm not perfect. I am special. I know it all works out for me, all of it.

I should have keep listening. I know I tend to find information in all sources presented to me.

Plug: Kolorflow Conversations - YouTube

Were they intimidated? Is it you make more money than me? Is it I just wasn't attracted to you? I don't like a girl who works out? Is it I told God if she's the one for me let her walk out with a blue dress on? What was it? What conclusions do we come to and why?

I think I was birthed by a black man.

I birthed a black man.

I am a black woman.

What has happened that has tainted our mind about our own kind?

I liked one when I barely knew what liking looked like

I kissed his friend

I met one that was my friend

I kissed his friend and another friend and another one

I liked one that I thought I loved but it was only his voice

I loved one that didn't love me.

Some mentioned.

Some unmentioned.

Some not all sexual.

Some being non sexual hit the worse.

Then I loved me.

Then I realized I didn't love one that didn't love me.

I didn't know what loved looked like

An accomplishment, upgraded from side chick

so no rewards broke another sister another brother

Make it all make sense

It's us versus them... them, next level us together as a couple

but we just average, not enough

Can we heal one another and do it for our culture?

In the meantime, I won't lose my life trying to save yours.

my lights are flickering, I just said to myself today I've never experienced lights flickering after seeing a post about 5 signs that indicate when spirits are around you

my left ear ring

ears ringing - civil war - pick a side - red - blue - future cash

I notice a difference I wonder why white side vs black side - ying, yang

I just want to learn you... cause I already know you

learn: gain or acquire knowledge of or skill in (something) by study, experience, or being taught

know: be aware of through observation, inquiry, or information

The podcast, my lesson... learn people.

Romans 9:19 based on me seeing #919

I read Romans 9:19-24 His Power and Glory