May 29, 1995

We often look at our kids for who we want them to be instead of who we raised them to be…

I was young. I was broken. I prayed for a son.

I had a son, who saved my life but I never meant to break his while saving my own…

A single mother not realizing the impact of a child not having both parents in the home…

At the time I did my best… sure my parents did too.

Choices. Consequences.

I believe in God. It’s bigger… I know God. Jordan is my very own gift from God. I didn’t need to be careful of what I asked for because my God knew just what I needed… in spite of being a sinner he blessed me with a healthy baby boy… my healthy baby boy.

The first born son.

A young man that I love more than my life itself.

I vowed to put myself first but my son will never be last in my life… he’s only runner up to me.

Dear JB,

it’s something about being a mom

a boy mom

Jordan’s mom

I would not have it any other way

it deeper than saying you make my day

you truly are the reason my heart beats

that’s why I always worry when you are in the streets

yeah I’m one of those

no matter the scenario

all things go out the window

when it comes to you my JB

you see you’re everything to me

the space in my heart isn’t shared with another

no sister or brother

while I am preparing to be a wife

you’ll always have a place in my life

I’ll never compromise or jeopardize

my relationship with you

after all we’ve been through

you taught me patience is a virtue

I know I can be overbearing

just know it’s a form of caring

it’s not control

it’s just I love you with my whole soul

some may say it’s cliche

but love does conquer all

stand tall son

don’t fall son

but if you do

get back up you have goals to pursue

God is always preparing another breakthrough

just for you

remember your praying mother

you have her Psalm 91 covering

you’re a King

ain’t no telling what year 29 is about to bring

I’m destroying everything that comes in your way

all this just to say Happy Birthday

Heavy on D E S T R O Y I N G everything

ups and downs ins and outs because parents hurt children and children hurt parents but none of that matters as my gift from God I stand 10 toes down for you… always & forever

Mama Bear