WWJD?

Today, Monday, March 25, 2024

What would Jesus do?

Mase said all you get to do in life is pick your choice but the consequence you don't get to pick.

His example was he could go out and get a woman pregnant, have a beautiful child but that's not what he was supposed to do.

Does anybody else remember the phrase what would Jesus do?

If you don't know by now I do a podcast on YouTube with called Kolorflow Conversations with Uakeisha Barber. Uakeisha picks me up weekly for recording. The thing I look forward to the most is the car rides. The conversations we have are so deep and inspiring. I love a conversation that gets me up lifted, even when it involves being told how I need to correct my own behavior and be more godlike. I remember one particular day I told her I wish God would just lay His plan out for me. If you've been watching the podcast or reading my blog post you'll know I'm a signs and synchronicities girly. I truly want God to direct my path. I realize I only trust him. People will fail you every single time. We put too many expectations on people not even knowing there (hidden) "issues", traits or beliefs. Yoked. Sadly, I believe some people don't even know who they truly are and are picking up personality traits from those surrounding them. I try to stand in my true, authentic self. However, I do learn from those around me and I may include or maybe the word is adopt the things I learn from others in my day-to-day life. We are here to learn and evolve. As with anything, there are levels to learning from others versus trying to morph into that other person.

The one thing I want anyone who's reading this and myself to know is it's ok to ask for help.

Pause... ask yourself how much do you help the person you're asking for help from?

I think of the #2, balance, cups overflowing and never running out.

I ask God to guide me. I've made so many bad decisions in my life. Ok, maybe bad is extreme. I've made some choices that I know I shouldn't have. I made some choices that I know I should have. I have learned from both. I am happy where I am today in life... to an extent. I know I don't want to make any more "bad" choices. I ask God to guide me. I talk about not using my brain - I want to trust people so much that I don't have to use my brain. Listen, I don't want to be brain dead but I want to know those I surround myself with love me Christ like. Balance. 2 Cups. I want know they are not intentionally trying to put me in harm's way. I want to know they are protecting me as they would protect themselves. I want to do the same for those whose life I am in... but who can you truly trust? I hear the backstabbers. They smile in your face.

Know vs Believe

Know: be aware of through observation, inquiry, or information

Believe: accept (something) as true; feel sure of the truth of

Ok so maybe I want to know and believe!

Again, I just want God to guide me... I don't want to do anything at all whatsoever without His guidance. I mean I want to be childlike... I want to be God's child. A 48 year old child. Dependent on the Lord. Claim me Lord.

My youngest niece told me she didn't want to grow up. She said she wanted to stop at 10, because I know how powerful words are I corrected her... Although, I knew what she meant. She's looking at the adults in her life and she doesn't want to live like us... The conversation started when I said ok tomorrow I need to do some adulting, which equals paying bills, making a budget. The topic of money is talked about a bit more freely between my sister and her kids versus how I parented my son - no right or wrong way just context for how the youngest views adulting. She knows money may not always be readily available for things... I mean we aren't rich. As parents, we are all figuring it out as we go... the expected and unexpected expenses. The youngest niece is luxury girl... luxury can mean so many things. We should all be luxury people. Luxury to me is not having to go to a job I hate and live paycheck to paycheck. It's not even the paycheck to paycheck part, says the girl with no constant income. Luxury for me is not having to do anything that I don't want to do at any given moment... and not having a consequence that will alter my well being, my happiness. I don't want to go to a job today ok cool so I don't do and the light still come on... I want luxury for everybody. The youngest niece lives a life of ease and joy... her biggest "struggle" "obstacle" is school. This girl does not like school. I chuckle.

What's your biggest obstacle in life?

Mine is hearing God. I want it to be so clear that it is God talking to me - without any doubts!

I have so many situations I wish I could do over (regret). I am trying not to live in that place of regret or the past... I just want to know at all times God is directing my steps.

It's not what would Jesus do - it's a bit more specific what does He want me to?

Truth is the things Jesus did in the bible I can't do. Speak to me Lord. Make it plain.

Habakkuk. Vision. Plain. Do you know what you want?

Make it plain so God can show you how to get there...........

I grab my bible and flip to Proverbs. It lands on Chapter 15 (I was looking for Chapter 16) and my eyes go right to verse 15: Every day is miserable for the depressed, but a lighthearted man has a continual feast.

Lighthearted: (of a person or their behavior) cheerful and carefree

Proverbs 16:9

vs 1 - "what the tongue utters is from the Lord". Words, like actions, often produce results different from those which were planned.

Whew! Let me watch my words. Let me move slower. In America, everything is so fast faced from fast food to fast cars. We live in a rush. Let me slow down. Process.

I think of the Pink Lady, the elderly lady that sat next to me on my flight to Vegas. I love her and I don't even know her - she poured into me during that flight. I remember her saying God will tell me want to say... I thought ok. I was inspired. I will adopt that belief into my life. He'll tell me what to say too. This is now my truth...... copy cat is popping in my head, when it's simply being inspired. Do you tell those in your life how much you're inspired by them or do you just take on the inspiration without giving credit to the source - lowercase source.

Side bar: The Pink Lady talked to me about Civil War.

Now I think of Metro, Future, Kendrick, Drake

Pink Lady said a lot to me and this was November 11, 2023. 1111. I still think of my conversation with her now, regularly... clearly. I never knew her name. She just had on pink. A lot of pink. She told me pink was the color of healing. Vegas was my healing trip. Pink Lady was my source. God was her Source. Pink Lady receives favor from God for bringing me closer to Him. I pray for Pink Lady. I will probably never see her again. I don't know if I would recognize her face, but she forever impacted my life.

I love telling people I admire them... I love having something to aspire to become. I love being inspired. It's so many of us that want to be the first to do it... chile, the only first is God. The last I checked the very 1st verse, in simpler terms sentence in a book we all seem to own or at least come across a few times at some point in our lives says:

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.

Created in this context is said to mean a making out of nothing.

Nothing: not anything; no single thing

My sister, My brother - what have you truly made out of nothing? I hear that saying I'll wait. I won't wait. I'm not waiting for you to misconstrue, make up something... Bogus. Wait for what?

vs 2 - all the ways of a man may be pure in his own eyes, but it is the Lord who proves the spirit

Proves: demonstrate the truth

Spirit: the nonphysical part of a person which is the seat of emotions and character; the soul

We think we know but we don't... I hear "only God can judge me"

vs 3 - entrust your works to the Lord, and your plans will succeed

Entrust: put (something) into someone's care or protection

I hear "let go let God"

I think of the word "work" and my blog post on called worse day... work is so much more than a job or a career it's everything you do

Everything, literally everything, I need to put it in the care of correction protection of the Lord

vs 4 - the Lord has made everything for his own ends, even the wicked for the evil day

I think of the Netflix series, Manifest

Romans 8:28 for those who love God all things work together for good

no matter what I shall trust the Lord, there are no bad times because everything is for the Lord and by loving Him, all things work together for my good

vs 5 - every proud man is an abomination to the Lord; I assure you that he will not go unpunished

Proud: feeling deep pleasure or satisfaction as a result of one's own achievements, qualities, or possessions or those of someone with whom one is closely associated

I hear no matter what happens honor God first, He gets ALL of the praise

vs 6 - by kindness and piety guilt is expiated, and by the fear of the Lord man avoids evil

Piety: the quality of being religious or reverent

Guilt: the fact of having committed a specified or implied offense or crime

Expiated: atone for (guilt or sin) *atone = make amends

I struggle with this... I look up kindness... being friendly, generous

I go to another bible.... it reads iniquity is atoned for by loyalty and faithfulness, and one turns from evil by the fear of the Lord

I think I get it... being kind and religious amends the crime, also fearing the Lord... do no evil

I get frustrated not even making it to verse 9. I don't want to write about anymore. I think of Proverbs 3:5-6. I continue to ready. (typo read)

*I start a Proverbs 1 verse 1

Lord I am ready.

I am ready for you to direct my paths. I need to understand it all... all the stories, parables in the bible for myself. I need to understand you, Lord. I need to know your will for my life Lord. I need to block out all of the distractions. I need to be okay with what's said to my face and behind my back because... Solomon taught me all of this is meaningless.

This is my life. We learn from teachers but we are entitled to form our own opinions - I hear my wind chimes, I feel this is confirmation, my ear rings, more confirmation. Does the teacher teach straight from the book? Have you ever been in a meeting and all they did was read the PowerPoint? Or have questions and they have to follow up with you when you literally asked them something they are supposed to be teaching? How does the teacher teach?

Does the lesson or method of teaching change over time? I think of math... it's not done now how it was in the 90s, the method changed but the answers didn't...

I feel as though in any given situation it's okay to ask for more information when you don't understand and if a person cannot truly explain it - maybe they don't understand themselves?!?! I'm sure I've said that before. I am not trying to recite something I hear or read. I am trying to communicate what I have learned, my interpretation. Truth is -

I am aiming for one thing in this lifetime

WISDOM

Ask... the things I ask for are visions, wisdom, love, health, wealth.

I remember something else I read (comment by TeacHer Tiah on TikTok) and added to my memory rolodex: I want God to help me recognize when he answers my prayers... my edit: the asked and unasked prayers... and I want to respond in a way that glorifies him.

The real R&R. Recognize & Respond.

I think of the people who impact my life on a daily that I don't even know.

I think of how I pray for those people who impact my life on a daily.

While I don't know what their prayer requests are I know God does so I just ask Him to meet them where they are and show them where they need to be. I keep my request for others simple. I know how strong my words are... I know how connected to God I am... I think of David. Psalms.

How about you? What are you aiming for? We all want money. This is not the land of the free, we need money. Money is essential to survive, so don't say money. If you had infinity money what would you buy? What would you do? Would you automatically be happy? What is your happiness based on? A new career, house, car, marriage, children, vacations, clothes, jewelry? Can any of those things bring you joy? While I want all those things too, I know I have joy now with only 2 of 8 things mentioned and truth is I said children plural of child, so I only have 1 thing mentioned.

What is the goal in all of this... this thing we call life?

I read my bible for myself. I may never - never say never - step foot inside of a church again but I love listening to a good pastor. A good pastor to me is simply a motivational speaker who references the bible in way I, Tikisha Banks, can understand. I believe all of us have sermons inside of us... I think they call these testimonies. This blog post is my sermon. This is how I interpreted the word, for me... I am simply sharing my thoughts. I encourage you to commune with God though fasting and prayer (y'all love to Google look that up fasting and praying in the bible) and see how He speaks to YOU, individually... just know God speaks to you using more than the bible. Just make sure you're getting in that bible too!

I look out the window towards the bird feeder. I see the sparrows. Okay, normal. I spot a chickadee - the spiritual meaning of a chickadee: the time is right to release old patterns and energies. You are ready to embrace change. I think of how for weeks the Common Grackles (even saw 1 red winged black bird) were taking over my yard. I'd count and it would be over 30 of them in the tree. I was scared. I wasn't scared of the birds. I was fearful of what was coming... I knew something was coming. I just didn't know what. The truth is I still don't, but I'm not scared.

I look at my phone as I'm typing this it's 12:21 PM.

1221 bible verse please Sir Google

Romans 12:21 KJV: Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good.

I hear the lyrics of Geeked Up - come up against me muthafucka I'm ready!

I can feel the thickness... she's cursing and talking about God. How dare she... again I'm ready.

And babbbbbeee I'm so ready!

I'm no saint. I'm a sinner.

and I know God is within her

her that's me

I don't need you to agree

because I can guarantee

when I die I die alone

so go ahead cast the first stone

judgmental know it all you without sin

what Nicki say... I win again

I hear a sound that's all too familiar. I look out the window.

A Common Grackle. I only see one. Tikisha is magickal. I am not afraid of what's to come.

I am watching Encanto -

Your fate is sealed when your prophecy is read

You can't hurry the future

How to help a family miracle, hug a sister

Construct your own future

Suffering alone so it would never happen again

Nothing will ever be broken that we can't fix together (family)

Family constellations

(if?) The stars don't shine they burn

Open your eyes what do you see?

you don't have to be perfect

you can't be perfect

I think of my life as a seer. A seer. A se er. A see er.

My vision are signs. Signs. Synchronicities. Alignment.

711 - Isaiah 7:11, Matthew 7:7-11 ...when God assigned me #711, my trust in him grew stronger

There are so many factors contributing to how prophecies will unfold...

Trust the signs to led you to your own future, the future YOU want.

Help, I am hear to help. (here)

I think I wrote it correctly the first time. I hear to help.

I am a seer. My God is here for me to hear.

What can be underwater and never drown? Fish. Pisces. Tikisha. The Chosen.

If any of this resonates with you I am your source. God is giving me these words.

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