2010 Just Wright

Are you new here? If so, read the first blog post prior to reading this one. It may or may not help you understand the typos, signs, and synchronicities. The definitions listed herein are obtained using by using a simple Google search and the meaning of angel numbers as told by Mystic Michaela. Welcome to BEHIND CLOSED DOORS where we believe it to see it - view my Instagram highlights to see how I've been divinely guided on my life path. I am hoping that you are able to relate to it separately and collectively. Please don't judge me for my typos, as I admit I've never been good with grammar. I was thinking I had some type of disorder, dyslexia... later I said this same thought out loud "I think I have a disorder". At 11:23pm I was told it was a personality disorder. I was never asked what led me to say that. Simpler terms - Tikisha, why would you say that? I glance at my note BELIEVE IT 10/31/2023 to SEE IT 2/3/2024- Seek God. Say Less. Satan moves because of what he knows. If you watch your mouth your (you) don't have to watch your back. Say Less Tikisha. I keep on singing the same song… so simple that it’s complicated, you think about mistakes that’s when you make them, water’s running baby I ain’t chasing, only in still water we can see our faces. Still waters run deep...

Psalms 14 A Lament over Widespread Corruption

Lament is defined as a passionate expression of grief or sorrow.

Tikisha are imperfectly perfect. "I'm perfectly perfect."

why do I write

not for your pleasure

only to put my pain out of sight

thoughts in my heart 

I’m not looking for a counterpart

to tear my words apart

why do I write

to control my anger, pain, and suffering

I just finished watching Soul and I remember the scene where 22 relived every moment of someone telling her what they thought was wrong with her, causing her to lose the will to live. I think of the time I lost my will the live ";" I glance as (at) my arm - a blue and purple butterfly and the words under it read "Love Your Mom Dorothy". I glance at my left are I AM enough.

711. Cancer. Angel. 7171.

Were 22 thoughts, faults or just familiar memories in her head?

SIX OF CUPS - don't let past experiences dictate your future, look back at the beautiful moments in your life when you felt contentment or bliss.

6 Material World - You're paying too much attention to the superficial. Your angels guide you to focus on the intangible you have had in your life. The most valuable aspects of lie (life) are love, trust, and creativity - all intangible.

22 Believe - You are building the life you want. Your angles are in direct communication with you.

Affirm: I AM MY MOTHER'S JOY. MY ANCESTORS SUFFER I DO NOT SUFFER.

I hear - if we're locked in ain't no switching up. Thank you Spirit for locking in with me. A learning disability or mental diagnosis shall not stop me. Green. If you keep doing the same thing over and over and over do you truly want to be healed? A lot is said in movies. I think of Happy Death Day.

I think of my mother if you always do what you always do you always get what you always get.

I don’t even remember the old me

the past is not real

I’m not looking back

I’ve figured out life’s hack

Lot’s wife got caught

and turned into a pillar of salt

Genesis 19

I have a new routine

some may think it’s extreme

others may think it’s mainstream

but I pour gasoline of them

trampoline on them

aquamarine on them

truth, insight, wisdom

I don’t care about criticism

I made this decision with precision

my story is rewritten and I’m getting everything I envisioned

using religion

Secret: I am really good with math. Yet, I need the calculator for for (44) basic calculations.

My prayer is that you find some healing in my story - that you ward off grief. Grief INFO-informally means trouble, annoyance; deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone's death. We grieve so many things so (some) of us are grieving our past or present selves and we're alive. Grab your journal, notebook whatever... write it out. I hear the song Walk It Out.

This is a sign to get out in nature, take a walk.

Who are my chosen ones? 712 711 811 211 511 311 511 611 911 2016 411

Support. Connect. Harmony. Endings. Prepare Yourself. Cancer.

Which tribe are you in? Are you building your tribe?

Red. Green. Blue. Orange. Yellow. Pink. Colors come in many shades.

grief is a thief

stealing memories

with no boundaries

if I had a choice

I’d never forget the sound of her voice

the feel of her hand

you see I don’t think you understand

the life I had planned

the trips I wanted us to take

now we’ll never make

what a mistake

thinking there will be a tomorrow

my heart is full of sorrow

I try not to wallow

in self pity

but this is my reality

I’m full of anxiety

sometimes I feel like I belong in a mental facility

my personality isn’t the same

let me explain

I have to retain

my thoughts

with constant self talk

I AM

is how I reprogram

my brain

so I don’t go insane

Affirm: I AM FEARLESS. I CAN DO ANYTHING.

Psalms 91 taught me about security under God's protection.

I'm sitting here and I being to cry thinking of a pivotal moment in during my life path.

I have a small bird feeder because the squirrels destroyed the bigger one. It sits outside on the windowsill. I looked out the window the I see three birds. Then two. Then one. 321. Countdown.

I am hearing Happy New Year. 210.

The bowl was empty but they knew it was there... Let me get up and feed them.

At times I feel empty but God reminds me that He's here for me. Always.

Their vs Here

You should also know The Public Journal - started on social media. I would post on Facebook the day (today's date) the day (number of days my mother had been deceased) and the message (my feelings). This is how one way I worked on healing myself... I was never looking for likes. I realize I was looking for validation - the action of checking. I was checking to see who was going to comfort me. I was looking for LOVE. aS (the letter S is significant) I write this I am learning myself a little bit more and more. I believe true therapy begins is when you can be your authentic self. I was designed to think outside of the box. It just took me a long time to realize that "thinking outside of the box" is what I've been doing for a very long time. I believe as a mortgage underwriter your conditioned to think outside of the box - the borrower may not always have the what lender is requiring... "the what". Therefore, alternate documentation is required and it's up the underwriter to know what type of alternate documentation will be accepted in lieu of what's stated in the guidelines. What guidelines have yourself (you set) for yourself and others?

Yourself for yourself.

My oldest niece just sent a message - 2/2/2024 12:18pm.

I here (hear) this is going over yoyru (you're) head. I hear you're head. Head is defined as the front, forward, or upper part or end of something. Tikisha you're at the end of something.

I am here. I am in the now 2/4/2024 2:14am. I guess it's no time like the present to also state the blog is written in no order. I guess that's another reason once upon at (a) time I questioned the functionality of my brain.

Black & White. Shirt. Heart. Cash. Brain. Kish. Mental Health Matters.

2:20am - 220 Be Resoulte Re. Soul. T. E. I'll be damned... my initals T.E.B. "re soul T.E."

The prefix "re" means again. Soul means emotional or intellectual energy. Reset.

I hear Aaliyah singing Try Again. The lyrics: if at first you don't succeed first you don't succeed then dust yourself off and try again.

Aaliyah Dana Haughton died at age 22.

Do your (you) remember what 22 represented? Do your - your is defined as belonging to or associated with the person or people that the speaker is addressing.

Morgan voice hits me: You do you and let me do me. ......I'm done with my Leslie days. Just Write.

22 Believe - You are building the life you want. Your angles (angels) are in direct communication with you. Here we go again... pause. Angles are the space within two lines or three or more planes diverging from a common point. Diverging is going in different directions; separating.

Be Resolute. You have the power within you.

Your angels signal to your that your bravery is seen and applauded.

Affirm: I am powerful. My t-shirt says I am PowHerful. GIRL POWER!!!

I have my headphones in now, no music. The message is my mother's voice. It played automatically. This is when my intuition kicks in - everything is happening FOR ME as it should. I don't care about other's opinions. I respect other's opinions. My mother's message - You aint fen to record me. It's 2/4/2024 at 2:45am - I hear pigs. I remember once my niece said Tete my spirit guides said everything is not a sign. My angels say otherwise. Let me look up pigs -

Thank you Spirit. I was struggling with being heard and know I know she was too. I honor her each time I speak MY trusth (trust).

Affirm: I AM GUARDED AND GUIDED BY THE DIVINE.

See it to believe it. Believe it to see it. Now... I just see it. See (Seer) Insight.

By the way this is written over a few days. I'm currently on day 2. There is that 2 again.

2X@(2) This is significant. This is also to let you know that there is no order in my journal. Life is like this sometimes, no order. It just happens. Do you agree? I don't. There is order - from God. Direct according to the bible where it's mention 3 times that I know of - Psalm 37:23, Psalm 119:133, Proverbs 16:9 if you believe there is no order? The placements of these paragraphs will flow as they should and my community will understand - perceive the significance, explanation, or cause of waht (what) I am doing. Yacht is important. Boat. Sirens. Horns.

344. Make a new friend.

These are times you learn to forgive with no apology. These are times your draw closer to God because he's your - Prince of Peace. Typo - your draw... it's your turn.

Do you remember me mentioning the game of life? How many cards do you have left?

I play cards. I started with 6 then I pulled 4 more now I have 9. The number of completion.

There is strength in numbers, correct? Did you catch that gem? 649

If you Google "angel number 649" let me know what it says in the comments.

I am sure as a math girly I connect with numbers, which I've turned in to signs from God through his angels because he told us they surround us so this makes sense in MY head.

I am sure as a book reader I connect with words, but I've never been good with words myself. I've had a limited vocabulary when speaking but I know the meaning of tons of words.

I remember saying a word to my cousin. This must of been about 8 or 9 years ago. My mother was alive and well. He chuckled, repeated the word and chuckled again. I thought I had used the word incorrectly. I was embarrassed. I felt less than in the matter of seconds. He was smarter than me because he has a college degree, right? Surely, he knows the meaning of this word and I don't. I looked up the meaning on my smartphone and how I used the word was exactly how the word was ment (meant) to be used. Men Tikisha.

2/4/2024. You see how I used (use) my bible. The words in the bible may not be how you use them... how you understand them. You may be using them based on how you were taught, which is fine because when you look in the dictionary one workd (word, D - I just told the world I wanted him to love the rolls on my back and I'm ready for the balcony) may have many different meanings. It's the context. The origin... can I trust everything is written as God intended? How do I know the person who wrote the bible was chosen to be his writer? Chosen. Selected as the best.

Sirens. Where did angel numbers come from? Origin.

As I prepare to purge my handwritten journals. I look at the pages where I wrote down every single angel number I saw from 2/10/2023 -3/18/2023. Lunar New Year. Birth Month Date. I hear a crow on the television. Of course I'm going to look up the meaning. I know the significance of birds. I know crow is a whammy... let me look... TRANSITION changing relationships, changing careers, changing cities.

21023 711 111 1010 1111 1212 222 318 111 the beginning 31823 1111 222 the end

I look up I see a goat. 411. AM. The Goat. Pig. 1983. Feds. Jail. Compassion. Generous.

Future told me this is just the beginning...

The streets signed me. Taurus. Taurus. I gotta remind you.

Affirm: I AM READY TO MAKE THE CHANGE.

Now, I'm curious and I think of my own life path. I head to the AstroMatrix app it's the muthafucking TOWER. 16. Sudden Change. "You are a catalyst for change. Realize your worth and strive to change the course of destiny. Lighting. The fire has released the demon of fears. You have everything to redirect yourself and write your destiny yourself. Fire signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius. 1st. 5th. 9th. I remember the very first time I got the Tower card. I was like holy shit. The shift in my life was huge. Theresa Reed, the tarot lady, said to me right in my face the tower card is not a bad card. A few months later I lost my job... and her I am not present day - at ease.

I think BRING IT ON. This too shall pass. E. Lynn. Harris.

Affirm: THE THINGS I DESIRE ARE ALREADY MIND THEY DO NOT PASS ME BY BECAUSE I AM DIVINE. I AM READY TO EVOLVE. I AM OPEN TO THE ABUNDANCE OF THE UNIVERSE.

It's fun to see what the cards say. It's fun to "believe it" "to see". I believe nothing is impossible. I believe the desires placed on my heart are directly from God. I believe in enjoying life. Entertainment. I see the seeds I've already sown - unemployed 3 months, bills paid. Harvest.

I recall a conversation from yesterday which as of now was 2/3/2024 my friend told me I wanted to call you yesterday but I didn't get a chance to... I thought about maybe 10 years ago (me and my brain, I go to straight you mean 2016 - one of the best years of my life) and she told me you've been had this gift... holy shit it's 4:44 AM PROTECTION... she tells me what I said at least 7 years ago. I had her repeat at least 3 times - damn.... 3.... Mind, Body, Spirit

I look up at the TV I see a squirrel and Merry Christmass (Christmas). Two S. 2S. Okay got it, it's two letter "S". I'm going back to the spirit animal oracle cards - nothing. I think of the black squirrel that knocked over my bird feeder. Squirrel - storing for future use. Future.

Sow. Plow. Snow. Harvest. Spring. Dragon. Claws. Climbing. Agile. Adaptable.

Future Hndrxx. Use Me. Tools, tool, I give you tools these tools are for YOU to uS (use) ME.

I look up at the TV and I see "Pete" my grandfather I remember what he told me in my dream.

Closed Captioning. Move In Silence. It's 2/4/2024 and this case is closed. I have been set free. Make me better. I hear the word rest.

I fully surrender to God. I trust him. I trust me because of him. Heavy on using my intuition.

THE SIGN IS THE SIGN. I was taught to pay attention to what I was feeling, thinking, doing, etc. when I see numberS (numbers). I know now, my codes change. I can see the number in different order and process that accordingly. I can see numbers with letters and process that accordingly.

My cousin indirectly taught me to trust myself. Lesson.

TEN OF WANDS bag lady, your gone hurt your back carrying all them bags like that...

Green. Lavendar. Purple. House. Land. Grass. Sticks. Trees. White. Attempts. Struggles.

I hear Cardi B - be careful with me. Bodak Yellow. Dungeons & DRAGONS. Fire. Burn.

KING OF SWORDS reversed, cold ruthless. Rooftop. Philadelphia. History. 55. Pink. Yellow. Clouds. Community. Camaraderie. Red. Shades of blue. Shade of purple.

Cat. Mysterious. Strength. Silent. Power. Patient. Plan. Adapt. Dreams manifest.

ACE OF WANDS Protection. New Passion. Creative Spark. Inspiration. Initiative. New York. Angie Martinez. Hot 97. 2 years old. Abortion. 2 day procedure. Baby Girl 97. Guilt. Release. Triple Threat. 3. Across all frequencies. Sound Barrier. Voice Heard. Sound Barrier Broken. Pink. Roses. Shades of blue. Green. Crystals. Rose Quartz. Selenite. Cartier.

My religion told me: He who gains intelligence is his own best friend: he who keeps understanding will be successful.

My spirituality told me: Trust your intuition, God is within you.

My music told me: Only in still water we can see our faces

Higher me: I put myself first. I am enough. I am gentle with myself. I understand more and more each day. The support I need in my life will find me.

self

love

is no better love

it’s the only love

for what is love

if there is no

self

love

my worth

it’s priceless

it’s kind of like I went through a rebirth

I used to love him

what on earth

was I thinking

linking up with this man

HAHA man

more like less than

you see in my face he was my number #1 fan

behind my back he acted like he couldn’t stand

me

but I learned that was part of his plan

to reel me in

had me thinking we were in this together

kinda like thick and thin

my soulmate

my twin flame

it felt like fate

wet like a lake

all while sleeping with a fake

a muthaf*ckin snake

it quickly turned to hate

my heart shook like an earthquake

I had to escape

I had to pump the breaks

you see we all make mistakes

thinking they men when they are really flakes, fakes

you see when you having nothing else to give

that’s when you can finally forgive

yourself and live

live and learn

but do not return

for he is none of your concern

my worth

it’s priceless

my first love

it was you that I thought was sent from the heavens above

it was you I called my soulmate

my best friend the only one to whom I could relate

it was you I named my first born after

now my deal it’s all a blur

I barely remember what we once were

you are now dead to me

for ten years I lived your fantasy

believing you as you told me I was your wife to be

only to find out what you would be

you married another

thinking I would continue to be your lover

you were wrong

I will no longer play along

so to you I must say so long

you are now dead to me

do you know what destroyed my world

when I aborted our baby girl

she was pregnant and so was I

yet it was me that told my unborn baby goodbye

my only regret

was letting you control my mindset

and you wonder why

well let me be cut and dry

you are now to dead to me

I hate to be so direct

but your love will never resurrect

the sight of you I detest

I suggest

for your best interest

that you no longer sit and dwell

but instead bid me farewell

and go straight to hell

you are now dead to me

The handwritten book of poetry, pages with no dates.

 Although there is no date I know who this if for... what was I thinking? Sent from the heavens. Whew... I don't even think I knew what heaven was back then. The real back in the day. You weren't even my friend let alone a soulmate. The silence. The awkward conversations. The can I get a Monday? Monday was all we had. 1997. My first tower.

Red. Blue. 1995. 222. 144. 212. 111. Top of the World. Transforming. Scorpio. Tinw (Twin) Flame. Tin. Ten. Dog. New Orleans. Jhene Aiko. Emo. Pisces. Pisces. Pisces. 3. Balance. One Soul. Cheating. Dreams. Songs. Settlement. Cheers. Nelly. Ashanti. Ying Yang. Cerebral. 8. Birds Eye View. Rapid. 2024. Triumph. Son. Sun. Won! 75. Death - Tower - Wheel of Forturne. Red Flag. Leap of Faith. Leap Year. Frog. Safe. Food (Fool). Wish Fullfillment. Back Room. Harm to None.

Counsel with the bible how you understand it. Don't trust the Future trust your gut.

101 202,000 expected and unexpected ways The past isthe (is the) past. We just write for what's now. Cancer. Earth. Blockages. STrong Tarus. The letters S, T. Chariot. Brakes. Stop. Get Out.

I've always been a researcher but I've never wanted to write about it.... until now.

con·text

[ˈkäntekst]

NOUN

context (noun) · contexts (plural noun)

1. the circumstances that form the setting for an event, statement, or idea, and in terms of which it can be fully understood and assessed:

• the parts of something written or spoken that immediately precede and follow a word or passage and clarify its meaning:

Affirm: I trust myself.

I'm the person that walked arond (around) with headphones on with no musick (music) or anything playing in my ear. This was my first step to learning to quit my mind. I was learning to tune out others. I skill my mother knew all so well. I would ask her - how do you do that? I used to believe she couldn't hear - even went with her to have her ears examen. (Men, ed - The could mean men plural or education). I wanted to write examened... guess that's not a word but it's a word if you resonate with multiple men or education. Her exam was perfect. I was like WTF. She can't hear me - no she wasn't trying to hear me. She was listening to herself. When I think about the timeframe this was later on in her life 50s/60s. She became an angel at 71 (61 way too soon).

Affirm: I CANNOT TRUST YOU IF YOU DO NOT TRUST YOURSELF.

Stay Away!

T777. Sister. Sign. You don't want to be seen / known. How can you be known and not seen? Queen. Patient. Doctor? Patience? Gail. The pace is slow. Secrets will be reviewed. Revealed. Time to process. The letters T and W are significant. Done in dark doesn't always come to light, but this time it is. Clouds over darkness. 8. Stand on truth. 3. Only a fool starts over. Aligned beginning. Harm to None. Powerful. Powherful. Time is of the essence. Friend sending message. Fire. Frie - Fire signs? Fired. Free Will. Harm to None. Apple. Tv. Libra. Bag. 333. Strong. Aries. Taurus. The letter Q is significant. STD. Spiritual Hater. Magic that is not working. Ho. Whore. Slut. Jealous. Broke ass high school ex lover wants you back. November. Vegas. Mountains. Dodging Bullets (or not). Hooked (not hooked- deceptive energy). You're going to get caught. Lurking. Dreadlocks. Lightskinned. Water Sign. Hanging. Cotton Field. Linked Chain. Tree. Cosmos. Butter. Rainbow. Water. Moving Water, not so still. Holds grudges. Why do you hold a grudge? Red Hair. #3. Candles. Waiting. Impatient. Dez. Disparate. Child Services. Rain. Rain. Railroad (sounds). Capricorn. Pisces. The letter N. Black History. The letter A. The letter M. The letter S. The letter E. Call Sam. The letter K. 614. 222. Uno.

8/13/2023 I stayed in bed all day. I'm tired. I feel depleted and defeated. Yesterday I felt good! I don't know I'm just tired. Tired of being scared, confused, barely living check to check. Tired. Scared of layoffs. Scared when I finish school I won't know what to do. Do you start small then big? I don't even know. Where? How? When do I start? Is my heavenly father listening? I keep seeing ebbs and flows. Scared of debt. Scared to not live life, see the world. I want to enjoy life. I want to love life. Today I feel stuck. Father Yahweh show me the path. A new, not repeats. New love, no layoffs, a permanent job until I decide to leave (my job), new finances, no up and down, stability. I want to wake up at ease smile thank God not thinking about what happened while I was asleep. I don't not care who text or what the weather is because everyday is a sunny day. 2 logs burning as one sometimes the fire goes left sometimes right but it never stopped burning together - one was lit first - the other had a hard time lighting you see it was actually the first to be lit but it only burned a little while. Sparks still burning but barely. The wait seemed like forever near death. I saw leaving then pausing thinking she'd just wait it out alone but the sensation was overwhelming for us both never forget 1031 which should have been 1st. Here comes the log wrapped while I sit naked and ashamed. Exposed. Unlit. Log lit it's dim oh no another loss over before it started had we even met. Touch. As I was giving up hope. I am old and cat-can't kee-key-keep the fire burning. Then a tingle. A spark. I lit slowly. The fire building. The touch.

When 2 become one the flames go left, right, back forth but they never stop burning

middle, solid ground others pass buy-by but we don't stop burning other come all the way in grazed by the file-fire a slow burn. Blue flame. Green flame.

12-9-2023 Yellow warrior

1-24-2024 an excerpt: 1 arm. fighting for life. arm up. HELP! getting wash away but it's good water. bad person getting wash away heart. Deserves what happens. 52 28 249 4148

Education. Gratefulness.

Gratitude is HEAVY - meaning you need to express more of it.

Remember God gave Adam a CHOICE.

Adam chose Eve, not God. I wonder how he felt after that choice he made. Since he didn't choose God I'm assuming he was upset, blaming Eve. When he made his own choice. I'm sure Eve placed blame as well. We tend to do that a lot. Delay is not denial. Do you trust your timing or God'?

We typically trust too soon... and realize it too late. Again, TRUST a very important lesson that was explained to me so well in the book of Sirach, my 1960 something bible.

Hear me out - because I need some answer spirit.

I've never seen Lilith in any bible. Yet, I believe she's real. I believe when she was Adam's first wife and based on choices she had to make she didn't chose Eve or God because her story isn't in the bible - but what is her story? You don't believe there is more to the story? The entire world started with Adam & Eve - who had Cain & Able - who did Cain & Able marry and have children with? Are these children their siblings? 1/2 siblings? A question recently asked by someone near and dear to me, and this person's grandfather was a pastor.

The bible has been around for years - I was trying to have a conversation with my sister today. I repeated her exact words and she said no that's not what I'm saying. I was a bit confused because it was again her exact words. Based on her tone I could tell she was getting annoyed which confused me more because I was only repeating what she had said to me back to her - is there a chance things have gotten lost in translation?

POV is trending but does anyone know what that really means? I have my own point of view. Hence me studying about God for myself - this expands beyond the bible. The bible is the Word and I believe it. However, I don't change my beliefs because of what someone else says to me. I trust my gut - gut instincts - SPIRIT.

I talked about this on the podcast today - I told my friend that I was spiritual. Actually, I didn't say anything. I sent her a link to my website at 10:06. She replied in 3 minutes 10:09 Leviticus 19:26.

I'm a numbers girl. My brain instantly went 1006, 7, 1009, 10, 1010 and I process words how I seem them rather quickly as well so I instantly thought well I eat meat but before I could dig into the rest at 10:10 she said You know I love you! I'm gone give you what the Bible say!

Our conversation continued and that was that... we're cool - LOVE. There wasn't a back and forth there wasn't an I can't talk to you anymore there was more love and laughter.

I am healing - every single day. I am in my Word every single day. He already prepared me a while back for friendships. He told me false friend. The thing is he never stops preparing me.... Wait. Patience. It's 5:50 am (10 again) and a dog is barking... dogs are loyal. Loyalty.

The real will be revealed and the fake will dissipate with harm to none.

Let me try to understand what she sent me

Ye shall not eat anything of the blood... damn I haven't been Vegan in a years.

Neither shall ye use enchantment... Enchantment is defined at a feeling of great pleasure; delight. Ouch!

Nor observes times... that I got right it's now 6:03am and I have no where to go or nothing to do but just breathe. 603 (finances), 9 (endings)

My grandma bible's is a bit more in your face stating divination, soothsaying, trim hair at temples or beard, and tattoos - divination/soothsaying a person supposed to be able to foresee the future...

Question #1 These rules of conduct are all in the same sentence - Does this mean all the guidelines for violating/breaking the rules are same therefore the consequences are the same?

I feel like I need a down home Alabama, Mississippi, conversation but I also need an Egypt, Ireland conversation because this is my roots. I always wished I had a grandma as child and up... I wonder what the mother's before my mother and father would have taught me. I cry out for guidance. The tears run down my face.

Mental Health is very important. It's everything. I hear people say - people are going to think I'm crazy. I've been told a lot of times Tikisha you're crazy. I'm not crazy and you are not crazy either.

Period. BIG PERIOD NOT the little one - Bella voice

I need a break.

Affirm: I allow myself to rest.

I'm watching my favor - favorite movie and I've watched it so many times if I were paid to watch it - I'm a millionaire. A Millie.

Leslie told Morgan she was crazy. She wasn't crazy she was just on the wrong path at that moment in time. Morgan put herself first - you do you and let me do me.

Leslie didn't understand this behavior... I know it's just a movie, but I often wonder if she ever learned to put herself first while still having the same compassion for others. YingYang.

HOwever Ho, why are you here just popped up in my mind?

St. Luke 1:37-38, 47 I am going to focus on verse 47 for now "and my spirit rejoices in God my savior" verse 4 is also significant

Savior: A person who saves someone or something from danger.

My: Belonging to.

Spirit: The nonphysical part of a person which is the seat of emotions and character; the soul. Rejoices: Show great joy.

I guess this is why I've been so selfish with God he's "my" savior and I wanted to go before him on your behalf. Whew - dropping gems. Did you catch that?

Stay with me now... He's leading my path - not my parents, siblings, extended family, friends.

I'm going to do what God told me to do regardless of what my parents, sibling, extended family, friends say. I value their opinion but the CHOICE is mine and I rather consult with God than a mere human being. There is no way I'm letting anyone go before him on my behalf. However, I know the importance of tow-two as in counsel. I also know the importance of self - me first, my beliefs first. 2 Corinthians 6:14

Genesis 1. God created us both - male and female. Fee Mail Fee Male

Again, He created us. You give these human beings too much credit, too trusting. Trust God.

Think about it... Before: during the period of time preceding a particular event or time

***Have you ever prayed to God before an event? God, please blah blah blah blah.

Did you do what he told you to do? What happened? How did he talk to you?

He talks to me through clair senses. Task: Google clair senses and just know there several.

It's time to fine-find your superpower.

What happened when you didn't do what he told you to do?

Did you still rejoice in your savior OR Did you ask Why God?

Childlike energy. Group-grow up! The child gets made-mad when the parent tries to chest-chastise them.

Never question God. The letter E is significant.

The assignment is the same. The path is different.

If God’s ways are as mysterious as the pathway of the wind - how do tell me my way is wrong?

Ecclesiastes 11 is so important. I'm reading Saint Joseph "New Catholic Edition"

Affirm: MY SOUL SHOWS GREAT JOY IN GOD MY PERSON WHO SAVE ME FROM DANGER.

Words. Comprehension. Talking to listen. Talk to talk. Talking to be heard. Silence.

Celine, the letter W, R, Y (you) are significant

Affirm: I AM SANE AND IN MY RIGHT MIND.

Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue; those who make it a friend shall eat its first fruit.

Have you heard this bible verse before? I have countless times out of my own mount - mouth.

I've always said life and death are in the power of the tongue.

I'm Getting Ready - Tasha Cobbs Leonard ft Nicki Minaj

Nicki's verse says I got the power of life and death coming out of my tongue

Fact: If you've said "life and death" you're wrong it is death and life.

We are faced with a choice(s) every single day. The choices have consequences. Death. Life.

Death: the action or fact of dying (it also means) permanent cessation of all vital functions

I process the word death as transformation. This is why death is stated first. Action.

We need to be present in the moment.

What deadly words are you speaking over your life at this exact moment?

Affirm: I AM FEARLESS. I CAN DO ANYTHING.

What time is it and how much time do you have left?

We never know so be in the now and look forward to future. Snow White.

Be (exist) - Bees (productivity) in the Now (at present time)

We're adults with responsibilities so it's hard to slow down at times we've been conditioned to be on go... Affirm: I LIVE A LIFE OF EASE. As an ex-mortgage underwriter, I was condition to move fast. Time. Number. Quantity. Quality. The employer never mattered the design was still the same quantity. I tried my best with each company. I never aimed to be the best, just to do my best. My best was never good enough for THEM. I remember having a sign at my work desk called money is the motivation. I worked a lot of overtime. I do not want to live that type of lifestyle ever again.

All the hours and still no money. How did I get here? By not knowing -

Affirm: MONEY COMES TO ME EASILY AND EFFORTLESSLY WITH HARM TO NONE.

Sirens.

I was working myself to death. Literally. I've worked in the mortgage industry for over 20 years. I've been laid off countless times.

L

I typed a whole paragraph and it disappeared as I stopped to talk to my sister. I'm pissed because I forgot what I was saying (typing) and oddly enough "undo" did not work. Death. I guess all I need to know in the moment is the letter L. I was talking about life, death, haters vs congratulators.

S

I watch a lot of movies. If you know me personally you know I absolutely love Just Write - Just Wright. Leslie with a W. I realized a few months ago why I loved this movie so much. I used to fantasize about meeting Young Jeezy at the gas station. This never happened... Leslie was not your "ideal" girl and I see a lot of me in her... She didn't have a coke bottle body and I don't either. She loved sports and knew stats about her favorite player. I love music and know stats about my favorite artists. She was genuine. Authentic. Her spirit glowed. I admired her. I hear imperfections in Leslie's voice but I never saw them. BIRDS. SPEED. She was a bit anxious about timing, singleness at her age - I heard spirit say to me "hear age".

The Prince saw you - Yup, then he saw Morgan and forgot I was even there I'm used to it, she is beautiful - You're beautiful - The really great guys think I make the perfect friend - It'll happen - You just gotta give it time - When Daddy I'm 35 years old.

The Angel Numbers Book by Mystic Michaela states the #35 as Supportive Bonds

Build your relationship with the spiritual - pen a letter to your angels asking them to reveal themselves to you with unique signs and symbols.

I keep saying time is not real. Time is real.

You ever seen a clock with the wrong time? You know it's wrong but it still states a time. What time is it now? #906 Material Balanced - Life is a balancing act.

Affirm: THE THINGS I DESIRE ARE ALREADY MIND THEY DO NOT PASS ME BY BECAUSE I AM DIVINE.

Time is of the essence.

Leslie didn't even know she'd already met her Prince. The Prince didn't even know SHE WAS HIS Princess. Destiny. Meanwhile, the spiritual hater - Morgan - knew... and she still set her up. Morgan said to her you aren't feeling this dude are you... the tone. Jealous. Hater. Morgan, stated to be her god sister, knew Leslie - they were living under the same roof for heaven's sake. Morgan was so focused on herself and building a brand that she never even saw Leslie. She never even saw her. Moving along... Leslie said to Morgan I like regular guys... her body language in the scene in the kitchen always make me wonder what was Leslie really thinking?

Leslie, what's a regular guy? I know you liked him. You love the Nets, it just would only make sense and he's handsome. In a split second Leslie chose Morgan over herself. She knew Morgan was already plotting on the bag. Fumble. Leslie chose to leave the party with Morgan even though she was the drive - driver. Driver or not - Leslie chose. She chose to leave a star studded party based on Morgan's lies, lies she knew Morgan was telling. Who knows what doors could have opened if she stayed - Scott already know she was a physical therapist. The meeting at a gas station - no coincidence. Just the two of them... sharing a moment, an intimate moment so intimate he pause followed his gut and said do you have plans Saturday night. She lit up, her body language. Christmas. Tree.

They say when one door closes another opens... for a while in the movie Leslie's car door kept getting stuck....

I've never been stuck on stars. Lightning. The letter S. The letter E. Meaning, I don't follow a lot of celebrities or celebrity gossip. I don't know who's a socialite. I've always looked at them a equal - as equal putting their clothes the same way as me. I hear my celebrity news from 3rd parties. Parties. Let me be clear - I used to be a fan of the Wendy William show... things like that. My mother and I would talk about that show everyday. I couldn't watch it after she passed away. I don't now - know how those words got underlined. Lent - l guess it's significant and needs to pop out so I won't make any corrects. There are some times in life where we can't correct a mistake. Death. As I was saying, I am a fan girl don't get me wrong. I'm trying to be front row, hell on the state - stage, backstate - backstage with the artist I love but I don't necessarily like every picture Beyonce' post. Nevertheless, I'm still a fan. I for those selected few I want to know when can I see you? Can I When can I be entertained by you...

When Leslie met Scott he was regular...

Regular: arranged in or constituting a constant or definite pattern

He didn't know how to open up the gas tank, he was looking for a button. However, Leslie in her beat up ole Mustang that her grandfather gave her knew exactly how to solve his problem.

This counts as the first time she helped him.

Second Chances. Grandfather. Beat Up.

Her father always stood by her and supported her. He told her to be patient. It'll happen. I remember saying I wish I had a father like that... not knowing I had one like that along - different but same. I never had to worry about anything. He gave me his car. He's why I love cars. I love cars but don't like the drive. My life present day - no car and it feels so good. I'm learning that I can love something and let it go - and still be okay, as in just the same as I was before and after. He fixed things around my house, broke a few too. Nevertheless, he was always there. I would call my mother to discuss life mishaps and she'd say did your call your Daddy. Girl, nah I'm calling you.

He told me "don't waste your time worrying about things you can't change" - dropping gems using a wand. It didn't stop me from worrying but I always remember those words when I start to worry.

Affirm: I DON'T SEE PROBLEMS ONLY SOLUTIONS.

Psalm 71 Humble Prayer in Time of Old Age

IN YOU O Lord, I take refuge

I remember my father told us don't call my niece bad - a lesson of words. I'm sane and in my wright mind. I am sane in my right mind. It sounds the same when you say it aloud.

WHY complicate something that is simple?

I've loved Christmas movies since I was a kid. Today, during the month I love - of love.

I watched a move and I remember it said something like love doesn't worry about age or years (timing) it's love - straight from God.

I always thought true love was unconditional. However, at the same time I thought true love didn't exist. I don't think

I remember starting a blog a few years ago about fashion stuff... I believe it was pre pandemic. It wasn't until today that I realized that was never my true calling. I was raised to trust my gut. Instincts. I've been let down so many times while pretending to be up that thinking back I never knew what it was like to truly trust my instincts. Hiding. I am no longer hiding. Today, I told one of my friends with different beliefs - I came out and I just sent her the link to my website. 334

Her text message read " You know I love you!!! I'm gone give you what the Bible say!" I knew it was sent with love because we never use punaction - punctuation.

The misspelled words are on purpose. I am not correcting my mistakes. I am learning from them, so I won't make the same mistake twice. Brewing Magick... there are no coincidences.

A sign is a sign.

I wondered why that never went anywhere. I wondered why my friends didn't support me like I supported them - openly. I wondered why my extended family didn't support me. I've done a lot of wondering over the lifetime. The first indication of spirituality. There are so many things that just doesn't make sense.

She is stepping in to her power. She is praised. She is coming in to the spotlight.

Praised: express warm approval or admiration of

A sign is a sign.

Brewing Magic: The letter(s) V G Gold Lights Black White Ying Yang Black Stripes Purple Leggings

Purple Rain Prince 1993 The Symbol Fentanyl Overdose Horse Ex-Factor Encore Fade to Back rEDford Past Tense The letter (s) E D Edgar? Neglect Abuse Tupac Pun Action 8820

Somewhere between head in the clouds and the darkness Heaven Hell 4 7 37 H.E.R. Stake

Child Services Neglect 19 1019 16 Peeking The Girl Next Door 2122 This Litty Little Piggy Comp

Blue Red Yellow Green Child Services Broke Ass Wants You Back dodging Bullets

Affirm: I VOW TO RELEASE THE FOE

I now know why I kept seeing black and white - the cat, that wasn't my black cat, the neighbors car, ying yang - it's to ask this very question: What does seeing things in black and white mean to you?

The veil opened and the Queen is rising. Prepare for lightning... it strikes-stalks. Here this the chosen is the chosen one based on choices... are you truly chosen? ARe (The letter A, R are significant) you? How do you know? What GOD LIKE choices have you made today?

2/4/2024 I hear 1 out of 10 Americans have Irish in them. I am one of ten. I thought I was the chosen one of 12....

12. Support. When you take the next step, you are not alone! Sit in the profound realization of how support comes in many forms.

10. Clear Thinking. Thought and emotions need to be productive or else they can be problematic.

I cry. God don't let me lose your love.

The movie ended. I looked up and I see movies we think you'll like - It's a Wonderful Life.

5 start (stars) 19.2k 126 minutes 1947

George lost his hearing helping his brother.... so many problems that he is thinking about ending it all.

I don't even bother looking up 192 or 126. My head hurts - I already know the source of this pain. Is my Heavenly Father going to send me an angel like they did for George Bailey? The two things I’ve learned in this lifetime about diving (divine) timing is it’s always right and it expires at death. Please let this be my divine timing transformation moment and not....

Diving exploring underwater.

411. 911. Water. 1 are (arm) up. Still Water. wait, 1 are up - Chosen One

I hear Cardi B if it's up then it's up, then it's up, then it's stuck.

Personality. Girl's Girl. Okuuuurrr. Smoke. New York. Times. Invasion of Privacy. Say Less.

I look up at the TV the number 3 is on George's sweater. Mind, body, and spirit are one.

Affirm: I AM UNABLE TO BE MOVED.

Until next time... II The High Priestess J on her left and the B on her right. 713